it’s crazy that we’ve been talking for over two years now. i seriously want nothing more than to come and meet you. god. that would be so awesome. we haven’t talked too much for the past few weeks because we’ve been busy, but i tell you all of the outrageous things i can’t tell anyone else. you’re such a nice person and i love the things you mailed me. ahaha. i have to send you another package soon, that’s always fun. :) i really hope we keep talking and that sometime in the near future i can come and visit you. you’re a fantastic person.
just a few things about me.
-there are six pairs of sunglasses in my car.
-i can play 4 mallet percussion. i love it. i feel like that is something not many people can do well.
-i hate pumping gas. hate hate it. i let my gas light turn on, then drive like 30 miles more to avoid pumping gas. i hate it. ugh.
-i get attached/obsessive about things easily. whether it be music, a person, a food, drink, or color.
-i still listen to n’sync daily.
-i am a closet singer.
-i’ve read more books than you could imagine.
-i’ll believe anything. i am super gullible.
-i hate socks.
-i think showering is a waste of time. (yes, i do shower daily, though).
i think that’s all i can think of. ahaha. :)
you’re a good guy. you really are. you just weren’t the guy for me. right after we started dating i basically gave up, because our relationship didn’t progress at all. i blamed you for that but it was a mutual thing. i know you were insecure about my whole situation with the other guy, and you had every right to be. because he was the reason we broke up. i couldn’t just stay in a relationship with you when my heart belonged to another person. i’m sorry i was unfaithful. i’m sorry i may have broke your heart. you were probably happy to hear that that situation didn’t work out though, huh? i would have almost liked to give us another try, but my heart has been stomped on too much lately for that. i’m glad we’re still (kind of) friends.
letter to a stranger…
well. i don’t know who this is to. so to anyone who reads this…i really hope you try to be the best person you can be. i really hope your life is filled with joy and happiness. i hope your dreams come true and you never intentionally hurt anyone or get hurt. remember that somebody loves you.
to my dreams,
i’m doing everything i can to make you possible. i’m trying. it’ll hapen eventually.
that’s really all i can say. :)
i am so excited to get to college. oh man.
my schedule is seriously so lame but awesome.
mondays and wednesdays: 2:00 concert band, 4:00 spanish, 6:00 english.
tuesdays and thursdays: 12:30 Music appreciation, 2:00 concert band, 4:00 spanish, 5:00 leadership first year seminar class.
that makes 15 credit hours. hahaha.
ahahaha no morning classes all semester. yesss.
the letter for day 4 is to write a letter to your sibling. i have two. well. two half siblings. i’ll write a letter to my sister.
growing up with you was no picnic. we always fought and even still we don’t really get along. you’re 20 and i’m almost 18 and we should be over the past, but we’re so different we just can never get along well. i don’t know what you want to do with your life, and i don’t care too much, but i care enough. whatever you decide to do i hope it works out. but as you go on talking about how skinny you are with everyone, i’ll be at college bettering my future. i do love you and i think you could/should be doing something productive with your life. take a journey through life with your held held high and some dignity.
30 day challenge. day 3. write a letter to your parents.
this letter is to my dad. the parent that raised me by himself.
i know it sucked when mom left. but it’s whatever. because i would never trade the life lived. ever. not even for all of the money in the world. i am truly thankful for everything you have done for me my whole life. thank you for buying me my guitars and putting me in lessons. thank you for letting me pursue my musical journey through life, and always believing in me. thank you for being proud of who i am. thank you for never giving up on me, even when you gave up on amanda. thank you for listening, and caring. thank you for taking me to all of those lions games when i was a kid, and all of those concerts. so many concerts. thank you.
thank you for letting me make my own decisions. especially when it came to college. thank you for being behind me in every decision i have made.
thank you for loving me and being the one and only person in my life who has always cared. i love you.
people seriously tell me i’m acting weird like, everyday.
seriously, i’m just weird.
day 2 is to write a letter to your crush.
you know what.
fuck that. i’m not five.
this is a letter to my best friend.
to my best friend who does not exist,
i know someday we will have great memories. but i haven’t quite found you yet. a best friend needs to be someone who is always there no matter what. when i find you, i’ll write the real letter..
ps. i do have good friends. but not best friends. the ones i thought were my best friends, proved me wrong.
write a letter tooo…
day 1 — your best friend
day 2 — your crush
day 3 — your parents
day 4 — your sibling
day 5 — your dreams
day 6 — a stranger
day 7 — your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend
day 8 — your favorite internet friend
day 9 — someone you wish you could meet
day 10 — someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
day 11 — a deceased person you wish you could talk to
day 12 — the person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
day 13 — someone you wish could forgive you
day 14 — someone you’ve drifted away from
day 15 — the person you miss the most
day 16 — someone that’s not in your state/country
day 17 — someone from your childhood
day 18 — the person that you wish you could be
day 19 — someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
day 20 — the one that broke your heart the hardest
day 21 — someone you judged by their first impression
day 22 — someone you want to give a second chance to
day 23 — the last person you kissed
day 24 — the person that gave you your favorite memory
day 25 — the person you know that is going through the worst of times
day 26 — the last person you made a pinky promise to
day 27 — the friendliest person you knew for only one day
day 28 — someone that changed your life
day 29 — the person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
day 30 — your reflection in the mirror
a new friend of mine sent me some songs he has written and whatnot. i just wanted to post one of the lyrics i really enjoy.
You are the prettiest little freak. Your eyes are different from the others and I know it’s why you hide, Don’t go away, stay by me. Think of all you hold discreet and let it go. Be yourself. Learn to love; love yourself.
Written by Ben Wells.
I wish I possessed the talent to write good songs and things of the sort. I’ve always been a good musician but never could I write songs with meaning or depth.